you might wonder how it could be worse than trump


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But that there sounds the most like Hillary impeachment insurance has ever come.


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something else to remember about chickens


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And they're not as hard to train as you think.


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you gotta consider yer goddam reacting


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Nothing good comes of it, except in extremely limited cases where there is an actual imminent threat to life and limb. Otherwise... pull yourself together. We need human adults, not useless children around here.


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i'm trying on a new theory


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Because there WERE two sphinxes when I was a girl.

You're not going to like it.

It could be that when I woke up — when I vowed the real vows and woke up — I was automatically removed from a heavenly realm and put into a hell realm with very nearly the same specs as the first, only radically different thrusts... from one where everyone was trying to rise to one where everyone was trying to cope with outright psychedelic spiritual debauchery.

One of the few physical clues is the disappearance of the other sphinx... the one whose face was much worse off, but whose body was perfectly hale... also looking east, but strangely kittywompus and across the causeway from the one we all recognize today.

This is not a mistake. It is a clue.

Those vows?

They included coming here to save you.


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the scourge of millennials


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Has a silver lining.


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old people and young people with inflammatory disease take note


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Even if you don't change your diet for life, doing it for a matter of months, say, six, will make you feel so much better you will KNOW how to deal with things like depression and autoimmune problems and diabetes and heart disease and kidney problems and even osteoporosis if you JUST shut yer goddam mental conditioning down for a good trial run.

NOBODY dies of eating only meat and drinking only pure water for six months....

Nobody... except, of course, for the animals whose meat we eat, and don't give me any crap about that because that is life on earth. Everything alive eats everything alive. Plants that don't have decaying-plant-and-animal-fed soil aren't plants anymore. Even things like lichens and fungi, in the absence of other life forms to feed them, just live long enough to reproduce and live off eating themselves... and microbes in the air. This is life on earth.

Sometimes, going so drastically to the fully carnivorous side for six months is long enough to give your system a much-needed reset from the internal chaos created by modern eating... modern toxin loading. And how are you going to have a baby if your brain is so inflamed you can't dare to get off the antidepressants? What if all you had to do all along was stop eating the shit that makes your brain make you so dirt miserable you are grateful for the toxins they feed you to make the dirt miserable signals quit blaring?

What if even you only had to do that for half a year or a year to become healthy enough never to have the problem again? Or if it came back you'd know what to do? Too difficult? Are you kidding?

Should we strap you down?


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the world has moved on


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When the event with maybe the creepiest implications for Western "civilization" continues to get creepier rather than move toward a happy and lucid resolution.


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i guess they don't want to explain


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The already rotting corpses that dropped out of it, but still want to use it.


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guess what


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I am not going to be a bitch about their pusillanimity. I'm going to remind us that the people who make up an insider resistance only seem that feeble from out here. Yes, yes, some of them are doubtlessly spineless worms who would piss their pants without their badges and guns, but it can't be all of them, and maybe things are at a pass now where it's pretty much now or never for them to come out and actually make sure justice is done.


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girl scouts


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Bitching about the constitution again.


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nearly thirty years since i melted down


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And I was in Ferndale in the middle of it, being taken care of by redneck strangers. Met maybe the love of my life there, but I was too wrecked to deal with it. He drove his Porsche 115mph into a redwood tree shortly thereafter. The tree is fine. I still have periods of being intensely right back in love with him... his ghost.

So I thought today that I should not just book it home from the "real world" as I usually do. I should goddam take my time and not let pinheads aggravate me. I went to Ferndale for lunch and a little cry. I commended a couple of young men on their glorious muscularity while digging out the perimeter of a huge lawn on a slope. Told them they reminded me of the good old days, and drove off into my future.

As I dreaded, the big thyroid thing will not just reveal itself on my schedule. I did that monumental trip, it seems, only to become a card-carrying patient of a hotshot endocrinology oncologist. She was impressive. Had gone over everything carefully before she saw me, and talked like a goddam cogent medical professional. Her CV is startlingly high tone and her voice is the EXACT duplicate of a very old friend of mine. It was sort of psychedelic to hear Clare's voice coming out of her.

So I have to do this trip over in mid-August. Nodules/tumors are extremely small and this kind is very slow growing and you have to really try to die of it, so I'm probably going to live. It's just a goddam drag.

The GOOD news is that as of right now I have awakened two days in a row at a respectably early hour, fully lucid within minutes. This makes maybe five mornings in my entire life where this has happened. You may not be impressed, but I'm stoked. It feels SO good.

The really demoralizing news is I am fully two inches shorter than I was before they bolted my head back on thirteen years ago. So my third millennium go cart has NOT got a faulty windshield design. The driver's seat is crap and I am radically shorter than I thought I was. I put a pillow on it. I can see out the windshield on the tight curves now.

Fuck. I can't tell you how upsetting it has been going north to the top of Highway One to get from Peggy and Jim's to 101 for all these years, when it was a goddam PILLOW that was needed all along. I am officially a little old lady now... if you are going by classical standards. If you are going by modern retirement age schedules, I'm not official until next February.

Whatever. I have things I absolutely MUST accomplish and if my psychopath sister has killed me, you must warn everyone you ever come across. Strangers on the street. In the supermarkets. Wherever. WARN them.

And, yes, he was spectacular. His jeans were tucked into his mud boots. He'd come to join up with his father's codger dairymen buddies at the Palace, and we couldn't stop trying to get nearer to each other. We talked all afternoon and night... we talked until it was time to get back to his dairy for morning milking. We kissed. I fell into my cosmos being near him. That was the entirety of our romance.

He killed himself.

I did not.

Maybe I should ask the local historical society if they have pictures of him.


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sassy


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And manly as fuck.


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they let him publish a book


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Now he's got literary pretensions.


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all hands on deck


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Do you know what we get when all the earthworms are eaten? Desert.


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of course they blame us


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That's their shtick.

For those of you wondering about my health, it seems we just have to settle for me now being a card carrying, official patient of the Gods of Endocrinology. Won't be doing anything that might nail it down for real until the middle of August.

I'm tired of fighting for competent help on too many fronts. The Gods are competent and they are thorough, so I'll meet their timeline... since they don't require I graduate med school to do it... just sit back and suck it on my lifelong preference for knowing and functioning accordingly for another couple months.

So. Lots of driving again back to the crumbling hovel.


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how?


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How weak are we that we decline to revile Israel for this in public?


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same as here


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Only the people know it.


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